So…I’ll be honest. I’ve tested every day since transfer as it the only thing I could control. I wasn’t bothered by the negatives the first few days because it would be unrealistic for a positive since we did not trigger. I had to be careful for line eyes. 4DPT (days past transfer) did I see the faintest of lines.

Since I have no patience and love tangible data I did schedule a Labcorp on Demand HCG test on 9DPT or 4 weeks on the dot. I was surprised that I had test results in under 24 hours. I was ecstatic as it was higher than I was excepting— 146. Honestly, the best $49 I’ve spent during this journey.

This morning (12DPT) I took the hour drive into Nashville just to have my blood drawn. The agony of waiting throughout the day to get a phone call is the worst especially knowing the clinic closes at 4pm.

Around 2:30pm I was checking my portal to see if any labs were updated. Behold the beta results were posted before I even got the call! I was concerned if I would even receive a call but not even five minutes later did nurse Rita call to go over my results. Rita explained they wanted to see the HCG over 100 and progesterone over 20. My results were better than anticipated with beta of 457.1 and progesterone of 46.16. Repeat labs are needed on Wednesday.

I asked if I could do them locally to minimize additional time away from work currently. Rita noted that is fine however the results likely will not be in until Thursday. I consented and she sent over the lab order so I can go to a local Labcorp. Even though I could walk in I preferred to schedule an appointment.

I am happy though it does not feel real. Maybe it won’t feel real until our first ultrasound. I do know I’m scared as I feel like I know nothing. For someone who has wanted this so bad and read up on just about everything I still feel ill prepared in these moments.

I am doing better about living in the moment and enjoying these early stages of just me knowing lovebug is growing. It brings me comfort and joy. Let’s see what Wednesday brings.

-A