I wish I had known that leading up to FET would be the scariest/ hardest part for me. Aside from all the hormones making me extra emotional, I am seconding guessing everything. My rational mind knows either way if it works it will be okay and if it doesn’t work it will be okay. I am guarding my heart and preparing for the worst without living in the moment.

So far I had baseline and a monitoring appointment for FET. My uterine lining yesterday was at a 7.3 which they look for anything over 6 for transfer. So, rationally, everything is looking great. The doctors say I am on track. This is reassuring.

However, incase you didn’t know, June is my birth month, so I have all my annual appointments around the corner as well. I did bloodwork for my annual appointment and have been disappointed with myself. B and others keep reminding me that is it okay has I have done a lot since January 2024 hormone wise to try and cultivate eggs/ embryos.

Infertility/ IVF is hard. I knew after our last egg retrieval I was going to need some me time to decompress. I decided to take off for a bit in June not knowing transfer was going to be around the corner. I am hoping with this time off I can relax and be ready to go into transfer as calmly as I can. Live in the moment, enjoy what I can and make memories.

I could not do this without B, my family and friends trying to keep me sane along the way. They are IVF warriors as well in my book keeping me afloat.

As I enter the last year in my 20s, I am grateful that I’ve made it this far in life. Everyone’s journey is unique to them. Today was one of the best days I’ve had in a while. I didn’t fret about IVF (though pre-auth for FET was approved) and just enjoyed my day doing what my love laid out for my birthday. Truly an amazing way to kick off my 29th year. Thank you for being here and embracing this journey with me. I love you.

-A