The time between retrieval/ ICSI to now feels like an eternity. My brain is my worst enemy. Today, I received the PGT-A report from Progenesis. I thought it would have embryo grading on the report but it did not. I did receive a copy from my clinic the following day after asking.

Yesterday was my last active birth control pill in preparation for a baseline ultrasound and labs for FET. I continue a Leuprolide injection each night to suppress ovulation. Some of my anxiety has dissipated regarding progesterone injections. I have been having minor reactions to the actual Leuprolide two week kit as compared to the compound I used for the retrievals. It leaves a little bump and redness with heat for less than fifteen minutes. No other symptoms or reactions.

Now, to work on quieting my thoughts that this won’t work.

I’d like to believe my body is capable of being pregnant. However, with only one embryo I am beginning to doubt if this will work at all. I think I’m afraid to get excited that we’ve made it this far and this will be a one transfer deal. Yes, many others have only had to do one transfer however, many others have not.

I may feel differently once having weekly labs leading up to transfer. I already told myself I will not test at home until at least day 7 yet also understand a negative then doesn’t mean I will be negative come beta. Only time will tell.

The main stressor at this time is the financials. My nurse confirmed my treatment plan was sent over to the financial counselors on May 15th and they should reach out. Come end of May I hadn’t heard anything so I reached back out. The financial counselor stated pre-authorization was still pending. I decided to call my insurance yesterday, June 3rd, where they stated they received the request on May 30th. Insurance asked to give it 15 days before they have an answer. I will say how my clinic handles financials and billing is quite awful in my experience as an adult. I went ahead and paid the estimate for FET with the understanding if it’s not approved we will have to pay the self pay rate. My biggest qualm is paying a coordination fee per round yet I feel barely any coordinating gets done. Nor do financials get handled in a timely manner.

Now to work on nice self talk and reducing stress.

-A