This week has been filled with fluctuating emotions. With starting Estrace I experienced my first hot flash. I am glad that I had never experienced one before and that it isn’t a part of my normal life. The fatigue is no joke. I could barely make it to 11am at work each day without feeling down right exhausted even though I had adequate sleep and nutrition.

Thursday was an overwhelming day once the medications and supplies were delivered. I instantly felt I needed to organize them and make sure I knew what each needle and syringe was for. I was comforted actually seeing the needles as I feel it is something I can manage (though currently still intimidated by). I made sure all medications that need to be refrigerated were in one secure place. Later that night I got an updated or new financial summary for an IVF cycle. I tried calling our financial counselor whom just sent the summary over and was sent to voicemail. Friday I continued to reach out as I am not going to sign something I do not agree with or understand. I was informed to make an appointment to review it. I would like to believe this is the projected bill for cycle two as cycle one has already been paid for.

I am going to work on writing down the steps for prepping medication in our journal and have questions, if any, prepared for our baseline appointment this cycle. It’s a weird place to be in waiting for your cycle to start. It a different feeling from a pregnancy scare or a hopeful positive pregnancy test. It’s almost like zeroing in that injections are starting and maybe four to six months from now we can be looking at a positive pregnancy test. I think some anxiousness is uncover excitement. B appears excited that we are getting another step closer to our baby.

Update February 25th, 2024;

Seeing your first medication cycle can be overwhelming. I woke up this morning to a confirmation that our baseline appointment for this cycle is tomorrow. I was able to see the lay of the medications, dosages, potential day for trigger and retrieval. My nurse has definitely been sweet and so far the best experience of this journey so far. I’m hopeful that I will feel better organized and at peace for beginning tomorrow.

-A